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To-Dos and Realisations

1. Watch HKA again. Write about them.

2. Read Ghore Baire again. Write about them.

Between the two of them, I should find solace. Strength, more importantly.

No, not Raja. I am not a Sudarshana. No way.

PS -

Realisation: in my FL, there's just one, JUST ONE, who compares. TNB. Rest - no, i will never stoop so low.

PPS -

Ishwar uhaderke khoma korun! Amio korlam. :)

Mumbles...

Why is it so difficult? So, so difficult? Just to accept the plain fact that they will use you when you give them a chance. And that they won't ever accept doing so, ever?

Didn't I always know? Doesn't everyone know? Isn't it meant to be this way,? Isn't that hopeless harmful concept called trust meant to ruin loves and lives - always, always?

Why so silly, me!

Don't trust anyone. Anyone.

Ever!

Shei kobita-ta

Shob shesh hoechhe ki?


Ki kore hobe?

Tomake abritti record kore pathanoi to holo na etodine..


Ar,

Tomar chokher dike takiye

shorire shorir mishiye

je kobita-ta bolle thik thik manonshoi hoto -

shetai ba aj obdhi lekha holo koi?


Shob shesh hoyni.


Arektu shomoy ki pete pari ami,

Tahole?

Mumbles..

From the old photo album

She looks back at me and smiles

Her eye twinkle like a cunning fox

Her smile is of a hyena

Her lips purse in vengeance

All the vengeance the whole of mankind can ever conjure.

She looks back at me

And takes my present away

In a way no one else can ever notice.

She is evil

In a way no one understands.

In a way no one would, ever!

Lost, forever.

He had just said, "Grow up!" And I cried.

And it's not the first time. These days, I cry at the drop of a hat. Not even that! A feather, perhaps.

These days, I've just stopped being myself. I've become a puny, stupid, selfish, blabbering, funny thing I can never explain. Or get. I think I am lost.

Worse, I don't think I'll ever find my way back home!

My orkut testimonials :)

Probal Ghosh - Jul 9, 2006

few of the very charming ladies i have come across.. one would realy feel great talking to her.. she is a chatter box and can engage any person on any topic. believes and prac tices lot of ethics and morality. A must friend for people looking for good friends.

Anonymous

- May 30, 2006

sinjini... tui holi somgro prithibi-r kotha bolar set-e supremum. tui kotha na bolle to keu-e kotha bolbena. tai kokkhono boka thamas na!

Anonymous

- May 27, 2006

Nupur-shabdomoyee B'lore- basinee
Amra bhojona kori debi Sinjini
Karo habu ghorni, kahar-o ba pishi
Sansare satoto chole PN o PC
Temoni cholechhe tnar pure bhat-era
Khonekhone sloganito: boddi-i sera
Maathar kotore dhora sahityodhara
Prempotre quotation khnuje dishahara-
Hole tnaar dware eso, debi kripamoyee
Joy ghnete ja debe ta heavy jutsoi
Tnahar-i ashis nie lokhkho suto-e
Cal comm-e thyang dhore matite lutoy
Echhara asen tini suhrid-er beshe
Moner khobor jene nie hese hese
BBC radio hon next obotaare
Soros khorak bili koren shrotaare
Debir prosaad paabe jeno nirbhul
Akmone kore jao poro-leg pull

Ato chaap tobu ese tnaari dorjae
Adhom ei upaasok gunogan gae
Mono-pangshur dol fire khaali haate
Er kono clone jodi jutito boraate

♡*♥♥An!Rb@n♥♥*♡ - Proud of u Sweetheart - May 24, 2006

she is a nice friend and nice girl too

Anonymous

- Aug 2, 2005

advantages AND DISADVANTAGES OF HAVING SINJINI SENGUPTA AS YOUR SISTER:
1.you never suffer from siblimg rivalry.SHE IS ALWAYS SO FAR AHEAD OF YOU...
2.you always have someone to look up to, whatever you do.YOU NEVER GET APPLAUDED FOR ANYTHING AS SHE DID IT FIRST....
3.she always saves half of every cadbury for her "kid brother"(anything for half a cadbury...).SHE EXPECTS YOU TO DO THE SAME.
4.she cares for you,she's worried for you, she wants you to do good and be good.THAT MEANS WHATEVER MISCHIEF YOU CONFIDED ON HER GETS "REPORTED" TO YOUR PARENTS.
5.she is a really wonderful person, has a graet sense of humour, balances work and pleasure ideally in her life, and is always ready to help her brother, pulling this stuttering immature kid from every gutter she he manages to trip into.YOUR PARENTS EXPECT YOU TO BE AS GOOD AS HER.

but she's definitely the best sister in the world.ONLY DON'T GET HER WORKED ON TOPICS SHE FEELS "STRONGLY" ABOUT!!!

Dipanjan Gupta - Jul 9, 2005

From her youngest days this versatile sister of mine has got me in so much of troubles!! It started off with all those evenings in which our elder generation rejoiced in what they called get together.So did we,then young kids.Everything went so fine until "tua" was summoned for some recitation! The fact that she recites well was gleefully accepted by me but the consequence of me being forced to sing or recite after her mindboggling performance still vexes me! Now i was born with clairvoyance... so u see at the earliest of my age i have got my vengeance with the attempt to bite her ear off!wat say?:0)

Rupak Das - Dec 4, 2004

few girls r intelligent, soft , have adequate philosophy , quick witted and creative at the same time , she's one of those rare creatures and I am a liar !!

Sanjoy Nath - Jul 12, 2004

I really don't know much abt her. I can tell she talks a lot even with a quiet person like me. Every time she promises to write a big mail to me, she never keeps her promise. Still she is a nice person!!!

Sourav Ghosh - Jun 5, 2004

Sinjini is better known as POCHE, U can address her by this name as well. Ki poche kemon ???????

From crib to crib..

I was weeping my heart out for days together. Yes my reaction could be silly, overtly emotional, meaningless, stupid. But what matters is not whether "it" matters to you, but whether "I" do. If "I" did, you could just get me over "it". As easily as you know you can, and, only you can? It was not about right or wrong. It was not the issue which was the issue. It was just that i felt the way i felt, and you could help that and you didn't.

 

You had said, when I called after a week, that i send you a mail listing out things i want of you in bullet points, saying you'd come back to me with "objective" responses on them, so that disconnects such as this can be meted put easily.

 

You know what? Well, forget it! 

But didn't you once promise you would understand me when I were being just a baby?

 

I was surprised to discover I was still left with some self-esteem that surfaced at the right minute and stopped me. I sighed. This is a picture I have known all too well already.

 

We are, well, logical elitists. You had pointed out, as a parting note. I remember. I will remember.

 

But then, what's new?

Obantor Mumbles...

Or proyojoner shomoy ami korechhi. Khub korechhi. Kono protyasha chharai korechhi, daytiwo nie korechhi. Shei hishebe amar proyojone, aj, or kora uchit. Amar odhikar ache. Paonao ache. Er agey proyojon porechhe jokhon, tokhon koreni. Hoito tokhonkar fnakir jonnoi aj ekhane. Tai, aro beshi kore paona ache.

 

Kintu oi.. Odhikarbodh nie lorai kora jae, shantite mora jae ki?

 

Emnio.. Shantite mora jae ki?

shyamo shomaan..

Du shoptaho dhore oshudhgulo khachchhi.. Ajkei ki jani ki mone holo, google kore dekhlam.

(Ar ki ki hole mrityuta shompurno hobe?)

Introspection.. 1

Everything that I hate about Ma, I've inherited.

Worse, I think they make at least ninety-percent of me!

Byabodhan

Obhiman shabhabik, obhiman shustho. Obhiman mishti, shundor.

Kintu na bhangano obhiman, chepe rakha obhiman, patta na pawa onadorer obhiman kokhon je jomte jomte pathor hoe jae, ami ter pai na. Ter jokhon pai, tokhon shey ar obhiman nei, raag hoe uthechhe. Protishodhspriha jagchhe, uchit uttor dite ichchhe korchhe, shikhkha dite.

Tui korbi na to? Dekhish, amio ar korbo na!

Thik shei muhurto thekei premer gobheer jole opremer sheola jomte shuru kore. Shurjer alo ba brishtir chhnat, konotai ar shei "unconditional submission" byaparta ke ager form-e phiriye dite parena.

Bhalobashata gerosthali hoe jae. Abar!

Random, totally

Hoito nodeer kono resh
Rakhte parini oboshesh!

Amar motey tor moton...

JUST keu nei!!

Ek shokal Suman..

LONELINESS...

Bondhu
tumi knedona,
Amaro kanna achhe..

Knadina tomar jonno,
Tumi bheshe jao pachhey.


BOMBAY...

Ei shohor jane amar prothom shobkichhu
Palate chai joto,
Ashey amar pichhu pichhu...


ESCAPE...

Joto dure, dure, dure jabe bondhu
Eki jontrona pabe!

Priyo, amar.

Priyo rong - Shada

Priyo ritu - Borsha

Priyo machh - Boyal

Priyo manush - Uponyasher sheishob nayokera

Priyo gontobyo - Bhorbelasy pahar, shondhye periye raat namle shomudro

Ghorite priyo shomoy - Raat doshta

Calendarer priyo din - 20 March

Priyo kaj - Konuiye bhor kore upur hoe shuye gaale haat die bhabnachinta kora. Niruddesh bhabnachinta.

Priyo aphshosh - Ichchhe korle koto kii ba hote partam, othocho kichchhu howa holo na. Ichchhei korlo na!

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